The Answer is Not in Our Mind

The biggest assumption I made in my life was when I expected life would be like I wanted with people like I wanted and things like I wanted and trips like I wanted and anything else like I wanted. What a huge wake-up call life offers. I heard the other day children born over the last 20 years to today come in to this life fierce. They arrive wise into this changing world. They don’t have time to languish through the learning as I did through the 50’s and 60’s. life is happening faster now. They come in running with the train as they hop on into their existence.

I can’t make the assumption if children suffer than they are in the wrong place at the wrong time. They come in with a purpose greater than I can imagine. My daughter lived 32 years on this earth struggling with liver disease and yet I believe she made the choice to arrive with this huge disability. She made this choice in her life plan somewhere before she took presence in her human body to struggle so she could learn about compassion and experience the true meaning of conviction, commitment and love. I allow myself the luxury of believing her life was on a trajectory created by her to fulfill the lessons she needed to make her more whole as a being of light. I can’t assume her life was wasted because she suffered and cried and struggled. There’s more going on than my human mind can figure out. My struggle to accept and reason and hunt for cures is part of my life journey in acceptance for that which I can’t control.

I lived under the great illusion that life on earth as a human is all there is. I was death phobic. That death is the end – another illusion in this life. The worst fate imaginable to me was death. I feared death for me and I feared it for those I loved. I used to believe God is outside of me and my goal is to hunt for God and be worthy to deserve a love if I earn it. I believed every bad deed I have done deserved punishment for my unworthiness and would be meted out by a judging figure up in heaven. As I love myself, I realize I am creating the beliefs based on my fears.

My illusions are transmuting into inner truths as I walk my journey and listen to my heart. I answer to my heart wherein lies my source. Change is happening at a much faster rate. Children are wiser and more knowing. They have opinions on the environment and kindness and what’s good and what they want to do. It’s important to listen. As an adult I am still the student discovering there’s more to this world than I can see or know or have experienced.

Suffering is painful to witness no matter who the sufferer is. Its purposes is to break open the heart and feel. Break open the binds that hold the love we have inside as we hold onto fear that we will lose it forever. Love is our nature.

Our job is to see through the illusions and walk our own path and follow the gentle kindness we bestow on ourselves. Our job is to feed ourselves a food that grows and nurtures and permeates us so we can feel strong enough to open our hearts. This is our time to rise through our illusions.

The Universe so wisely created this incredible experience to carry us through a great change, opening our eyes and our hearts that we are all one, in this together, transmuting together. Awareness helps us stay on our path. Truth is our sword to slash through the illusions that pop up as fear pulls us off our path. We have free choice. We have strong wills. We know what love feels like. These are our allies. We always can get back on the path and continue forging ahead knowing fear will rise again and this time we are ready.

Crisis is the resistance to change. Change is the nature of our existence. Thought, embodied in the me, is static because it can only approximate life. Change, which is movement is dynamic and is a threat to the dominance of thought. Change contradicts thought and its center, the me.” Doing Nothing by Steven Harrison

Bapuji on Struggle

Edited excerpts from Bapuji’s 1979 Birthday Discourse on “Life and Struggle”

from A Journal of Consciousness

Struggle is the life of everyone. Some describe it as a horrible demon but it is actually an angel and the well-wisher of everyone.

Struggle guides everyone’s life. It leads human beings from untruth to truth, from ignorance to knowledge, from darkness to light, and from death to immortality.

Struggle is a very skillful sculptor. It transforms an ordinary human being into a deva who is respected by the world; it shapes the life of every great master of the world into a unique and unparalleled work of art.

Food will not digest without proper exercise. Likewise, life will not develop properly without struggle.

When happiness is experienced at the end of unhappiness, its sweetness is indescribable.