Four Buddhas sit on my desk, all in different shapes and sizes. There’s the green jade, the ironwood, the plastic purple and the small wooden one. I have them lined up in front of me. Each Buddha gifts from different times in my life. They used to sit alone on window sills until my practice of silence commenced.
Selenite also sits on my desk, a “translucent white crystal that represents spiritual purity, light, and connection to the angelic realms.” Five pieces spaced evenly in front of my computer screen. Selenite helps ground me, protects me from absorbing emotional energies.
Buddhas honor silence. Selenite honors my energy. With intention, they each actively participate in my practice of silence.
As an empath, I naturally kyth. Kything (like tithe) is a conscious act of spiritual presence. It’s a Scottish word. It helps to understand what it’s not. Everyone knows what it means to be physically present. Kything is having the presence and awareness energetically, like an energetic communion with others. It’s used in spiritual practice when working with someone and for those wishing to help others.
Kything has helped me understand what I’ve done all my life reading energy around me. My practice is to learn to pull it back. Otherwise, I am inundated with emotions. Practicing awareness has helped me learn to identify what emotions are mine and what emotions belong to others. It’s an ongoing practice as I learn more and more about me.
I have created an altar I literally sit in on a daily basis to listen, feel, write and deliver. These 300 days of meditation via Zoom have been a journey for me. March 18th commenced with eagerness and as the days passed, I’ve moved through valleys and over mountains experiencing vulnerability, fear, incredible love and community, self-doubt, self-judgment, heartache and joy, all in the name of silence. Every day, every experience deepens my commitment to the practice of silence.
It is a powerful practice that at times scare me because of the immense expansiveness of energy I experience. I want to know where I’m going. My inner child wants surety she is safe. When I get a glimpse, I pull back in fear. My meditation journey has been an ebb and flow, all in the name of moving, listening, feeling and being with me one step at a time.
The brain behind my spiritual practice is my heart. My heart has such knowledge of past, present and future. My heart has a connection with the higher realms. I’ve learned to listen to my heart. I’ve learned to respect my heart and with time have cultivated a direct path to my heart, especially when I’ve been hurt and run away. I know my way back, all in the name of silence.
I am deeply grateful to each of you who have joined me on this continuing journey. We honor our individuality breathing in unity. We discover together. We are the mirror we can see ourselves in each other as we sit in silence.
Our world is changing, ascending, transforming, cleansing, awakening and shedding so much pain and heartache. It is painful to feel. It is painful to watch. Every outcry of greed, corruption, dysfunctional action is expressed from a traumatized heart not yet willing to open, not yet able to open. In time they will thaw and recognize and move beyond.
This ascension is imminent. The energy of earth is on course and there’s no going back. We are well under way. We each have built a thick foundation. We hold steady as lightworkers in this grounded community as humanity wakes up. We hold this light that is strong and burns bright with our personal commitment to honor ourselves. No matter what your story, no matter your doubts and fears, no matter your wavering path, you are well under way. Thank you for joining me.