I slept all day yesterday
Feeling exhausted and listless
On the edge of sickness
Stopped fighting to surrendering
Started with the wondering
If this is it and I’ve got it
What am I going to say?
Where did I get it and who did I give it to?
It’s so easy to fall into
The abyss of despair
riding the fear swirling in the
sea of unconsciousness.
Memories point fingers
Chomping on my arms and pulling me in
And I remember I have a choice
I don’t have to give in.
My old surrender looked like bread with butter
And a tantrum inducing panic that curled me up.
My old surrender was wrapped in a candy bar
over stuffed stomach to the pain of distraction
Hello Divine I am Hello
I look down into my tender hands
Carrying my heart with deep respect
Hello Divine I Am Hello
Surrender looks like a good movie
As I’m cuddled in a blanket with a cup of tea.
Surrender looks like a library book
Surrender feels the sunshine sitting on the deck.
This audience of fear
That clamors for my attention
Is singing its familiar song
clapping wild with insistence
I recognize the voices, the images
Are familiar; I recognize the dark hole
And choose not to accept for I am
Worth fighting for in my surrender
Hello Divine I Am Hello
(The phrase “Hello Divine I Am Hello” is from Matt Kahn’s Where Healing & Realization Meet)
There is a wholeness that’s already mine.
It’s already ours.
I am not just the seed,
I am the rain that waters the flower.
It’s a reality that’s already there,
That I am enough.
I take on faith
That wholeness is already mine,
That I need do nothing to deserve,
That my worthiness is based only on my being.
I am wise enough to let go,
And I am strong enough to remember the truth
Of who I really am.
I can encounter the world
In such a way
That I remember who I am.
I am the rest inside the unrest.
I am the depth of the sky,
And the light piercing the sea.
I am the crest of a wave.
All that I need to be,
There is no problem to solve in this moment.
There is no plan to make,
No failure to be feared,
No other place to be.
This moment is enough.
This place is enough.
This imperfection is enough.
I am patient enough for my life to unfold in divine timing.
I feel the fullness of my life in this moment.
I feel the richness of my life in this space.
I am loved beyond thought,
And I have nothing to prove.
There is no one to impress.
I receive the message
That being is enough.
I am wise enough to see magic through a child’s eyes.
I am resilient enough to see past the pain.
I am kind enough to realize
That my worth has been with me
This whole time.
Beyond the shadows
That I have created,
The message remains:
I am the same.
I have always been enough,
Simply by being here.
Simply by being.