Inner Battle

I’ve been thinking about my childhood lately

Which was out of control

A mishmash

Emotional and physical

Fear, confusion and anger

Swirling around my hope

Anger turned inward to despair

Never understanding why

The anger, sadness, confusion

Constantly hanging in the air

What right does an adult

Have to screw up a child?

I don’t want them in my head

I have had steel walls

Barring them from entrance and

They drop in again

I will not be victimized

By my childhood pain

The thought angers me

Wondering how they got in

Obsessing thoughts that

Send me back into a corner

Reminding me to be silent

Compliant, mindless and small

Obsessive thoughts

Go round and round

Gaining speed